Hi! So sorry i have not posted in quite some time. Ive been REALLY busy the last few months
A quick update on my life. Ive been busy with school, actually just came back from an academic conferencec in los angeles! I was there presenting in the undergrad symposium at the american association for biological anthropology! It was a very interesting and fun expierence, I really enojoyed it and am so grateful to have had such an opportunity
Being quite honest though, I dont even like biological anthropology like that, I mostly did this because I really enjoy my PI a lot and the people i work with, but i dont plan on staying in this path of biological anthropology. I really want to get a masters in folklore or museum studies, or both. I also really like death studies, and vampires, obviously lol. I actually wrote up a list of topics of study because i should be graduating next semester hopefully and I want to plan what to do next, academically speaking. Ive considered a graduate degree and even a PHD, ive also considered taking a break. Im not sure. I love learning so much but it costs so much money, also, the world is stressing me out so planning for the furture feels a bit futile but im trying not to let that bring me down too much. Sometimes i wonder if im depressed or something, because when I'm at home i feel like i have this dark cloud looming over me. Even right now as I type this at home i just feel like my thoughts are clouded by this black cloud of rain and sadness. But I dont feel this when im away from home for a substatial amount of time so maybe the problem is home?
Oh, by the way I had a birthday in January so im 24 now which is cool. Ive been a bit lonely recently, because im so busy with school and i hardly get to see my freinds. but when i do, i am soooo happy. I really love my friends a lot. Thats something else that makes choosing what to do after i graduate hard because i want to go to gradschool out side of the country because im tired of being here in the states but if i leave then im leaving behind all my beloved friends and while i can just message them and call them and stuff, its just not the same if i cant see them in person often, because i love them so much i cant imagine not being able to see them often, the idea of it is making me tear up right now. but i also value my education a lot and my mental well being and i just think living here is making me depressed man. So im not sure what to do but i have time. Ive been looking at thailand because my friend rebekah lives there and shes made me think that i may like bangkok, but ive also been looking at europe. Theres this university in england that has a phd program where i can do vampire studies if i choose so and thats something i really want to do, but i could also do vampire studies concentration if i do a folklore masters elsewhere. Im not sure im stressed.
Also, works been a mess. A lot of people quit and I was looking for a new job but i will stick around for now so that things arent too messy. But i want to find a new job, this job is making me sad all my favorite people left, and i love my other coworkers a lot and they are also my favorite people, but like, so many people have left and its bumming me out so badly honestly like, so badly. A lots been changing and its really...stressful. But i am being strong and brave about it. And on the bright side, I am getting more shifts now so i wont be broke at least...lol...
anyways, im going to cut this short as I want to refamilarize myself with how i made this blog work as well as update my other page before i go to sleep. Hopefully ill keep this more updated, I think its nice to have a place to write my thoughts and stuff. If you read this
thank you and have a good night